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Hey! Jeffrey Lin here. I am feeling much better today as you can tell by my
booming voice. Probably never heard that before! We're gonna do an impromptu video.
we're gonna follow up with the last video about being angry with our eczema
to talk about resenting and being jealous of other people who don't have
this problem okay now from the beginning I know I promised that I would do the
injection video but it's not really the time for injection yeah two more days
but because I'm feeling good today I'm just gonna do a video now when you're
sick all time you just have no control over the schedule and what you want to
do every day so I always do things when I can have the chance to not when I want
to and today my skin is quite a bit more clear than it was in the last video I
don't know why and I mean it might still look a little bit bumpy but underneath
the skin feels cool is there's not a lot of inflammation and feel solid and the
skin doesn't feel like it's detached from my face so that's always a good
thing and I'm moving air pretty well my asthma is a lot better even though one
of my sinuses are still clogged but I'm sure you guys can tell I'm just moving
air so much better and I can't waste this opportunity and not make a video so
I want to continue with the topic last time of being angry with your situation
angry with your eczema or allergies or chronic illness and just the restriction
of it all like a sieve awesome if you're feeling miserable and in pain that is
total justification for feeling anger or other intense emotions
I mean I felt that all the time as a child I had the drags in mind had the
really scaly cracking skin and it was just really thick but as I got older
turned into the wet eczema where it was always leaking and infected it's called
tearing like tears when you're crying and out the words my skin was literally
gone and I looked like a burn victim so my skin was stick to my bedsheets and my
pillowcase when I was sleep and any time I turned the pillowcase I was sticking
to my face would just rip part of my skin off and I would bleed and I'll wake
up from the pain and I would turn around again and fall asleep in the pillowcase
or the sheets will stick to my neck or some rail my hands and rip more skin off
whenever I moved you know I couldn't wear slippers
I obviously couldn't wear shoes because the songs would just stick to my skin
and every time I pull those socks off it would just tear off the skin on my feet
I couldn't put my hands in my pocket couldn't hold a pen my nails are
literally falling off I understand the misery that comes with eczema and
autoimmune problems and being sensitive and just the last video where I clean
was stand up but because the rain was coming and right now we're in between
two rainstorms so probably just today I'm gonna feel decent there's the bad
kind of being angry where you're resentful and direct your anger towards
other people meaning you're jealous of other people and that kind of anger just
a recipe for disaster man you really got to check that emotion your voice just
went from shaggy to scooby-doo this is not what we root a lot of the younger
years are angry or depressed about being restricted and not having a normal
teenage life whatever that means and what that means is you're just looking
around at certain people that seem to have a good life and you're just
comparing yourself to the best possible scenario you don't notice a lot of other
people are suffering around you a lot of people probably do have it worse a lot
of people actually do have it worse than you if you're watching this video that
means you have the intern amis you're one of the most privileged
people in history and also one of the most privileged people that alive right
now so if you compare yourself to somebody you know who's young and rich
or something or Haskell looks and athletic and going out and having a lot
of friends and things like that that's not the average person that's not
everybody you're losing you're losing because you're laying in your bed
looking at somebody's glamorous photoshopped picture of them doing
something cool and you're envious and you're jealous and you're impatient and
it's crippling you're upside there are other people with other illnesses that
are able to do much there are people who are working ready taking care of their
families when they're really young imagine not doing anything fun or going
anywhere for the next eight years including Saturday and Sunday that's
what I did from 22 to 30 every day I spent 15 hours a day in a liquor store
thought about a liquor store built a liquor store sold wine like every day
even though you're stuck at home and limited to what you can do this time is
not wasted all time you spend being sick is building up your tenacity your
ability to handle stress and have any grace under pressure I talked about this
in the last video about our strengths as people with chronic illnesses we look at
everybody else meaning just everybody else who is able to be seen having an
amazing life even those people might have problems that you don't want and
the older I get that's something that I learned that everybody has problems so
even if somebody looks like they have a perfect life and they're younger
they'll inevitably run into problems when they get older look everybody has
good and bad in life we're all born with either an advantage or disadvantage we
either started with too much or we started with too little and then
basically you know your internal fortitude decides if that was good or
bad I've sat with people that have ten
million dollars in their trust fund crying saying that they hate their lives
because their parents took care of everything and they'll never achieve
anything on their own and no matter what they achieve
everybody's gonna say it wasn't them and they think it's the worse and they're
suicidal this is real now for somebody like you or others that start with zero
you're like getting those out of here ten million you know you know listen man
to be very honest with you I'll give you the answer you have no choice
that's how what's the alternative
you know so many people complain to me about their illness or situation in life
about how bad it is and all I have to do is ask him what do you want to trade
with me nobody ever in my life have wanted to
trade their life with me that's how bad my eczema allergies asthma and
autoimmune disorder it is research doctors have told me is the fifth worst
condition that they've ever seen with eczema allergies asthma and I'm sure
there are other people out there who haven't met research doctors that are
just as bad or worse of me but I'm right up there a lot of times I wouldn't want
to trade with somebody else because at least I know mostly how to deal with my
problems we've taken to all the problems that there are that people experience in
life there's a lot of things that you I don't want to trade with other people
even though by the time I was four years old I thought I would die because every
doctor that I saw just had this blank stare they were just afraid of my
condition they weren't just confused about how to deal with it they were
literally afraid and they didn't want to help me and they didn't know how to help
me and I'm 36 now and I have a lot of friends that have already passed away or
spouses of friends that have passed away people I'm close with when we were kids
these people were healthy these people had an easier life but so many things
happen in life that you cannot predict and just because you're in a bad
situation now doesn't mean it won't get better and just because somebody else
has it better than you at this moment doesn't mean they don't be like that
forever because it won't that's what I'm saying with our strength our experience
of dealing with crises and having a tough time of it when other people
inevitably run into problems we can help them instead of being jealous that
somebody has a better time right now look at other people who can use our
help because there are a lot of people all around us that need our help
they just might be too sick or too tired just like you that they can't make their
voice heard and you just gotta go look for it I have
several friends that have depression and I would never have believed it until
they told me because they seem like the happiest people in the world but those
are people that I've been able to help I'm really glad I can and it's only
because of the problems and the frictions I've gone through with my skin
and allergies that I was able to help my friends through their depression
let me end with this story here when I went to Milan Italy for Fashion Week a
couple years ago for the fashion magazine I started I met a lot of
Italian photographers that work with Russian models and I asked why don't we
see most of these Russian models again they kind of are always new faces and
they just disappear like where they go do they go back to Russia and have nice
gigs there and just live a great life no apparently when a model is discovered in
Russia the modeling agency will bring them out too when the Western European
countries like Italy or France like Paris Fashion Week where they'll get
some exposure they'll get some work and these models don't get paid for the work
they just get room and board and if they don't stand out in three months or so if
they don't get big contracts and become an international superstar they get sent
back to Russia the agencies don't want them and these girls end up going back
to Russia and the only livelihood they have are being a prostitute which means
they'll end up taking a lot of drugs and probably dying early and I was like you
know traveling Europe was incredibly difficult and I'm ate McDonald's every
single day because at the time it all was the only safe food that I can eat
but I don't think I want to trade my life here in America for a healthy
Russian girl that ends up having the only choice in life is to become a
prostitute there's just so many variations of life that if you can't say
mine is worth yeah seriously 99.9999 and and a percent of the world is having a
hard time and all those people have something to be angry about something to
be depressed about so don't focus on other people just focus on what you can
do with your situation that to make it just a tiny bit better each
day or each week or each month focus on actionable things that you can do and
emotions like anger and even depression isn't something that's gonna get us
anywhere better
you
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